Family thoughts at a family meal<\/strong><\/p>\nSalvador and I caught up with each other in his kitchen, in the two-room former attic in his parents’ home.<\/p>\n
Salvador’s wife, Guadalupe, wore a bright red KP Concessions apron with pictures of cotton candy and a corn dog on the front as she made chicken picante with avocados, cactus and tortas.<\/p>\n
She travels north with Salvador, working in concessions and living in an even smaller space in the mobile bunkhouses.<\/p>\n
I sat at the dinner table and joked that I wanted cotton candy, funnel cakes and corn dogs for dinner.<\/p>\n
Hands still in the sink, she laughed.<\/p>\n
\u201cThen I quit,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
It was over dinner Salvador said how sorry he is for American families he sees up north.<\/p>\n
\u201cWe do not have a big house. We don’t have new clothes or a new car. We have happy families,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n
\u201cI live in the same house I was born in. I am 47. My children, live with us (when not at college) \u2026 People tell me American children leave at 18.\u201d<\/p>\n
Salvador is a happy family man, no mistake. His home is filled with laughter, college dreams and a mad parrot. He says his happiness is his wealth. Here is where Cortez would have found his Totonac gold. <\/p>\n
His son, Ricardo, 20, is studying to be a civil engineer and daughter Rosario, 19, is studying to be a radiologist. All Salvador and Guadalupe’s carnival money goes to their education.<\/p>\n
I ask Ricardo if he would consider going north to earn extra money in traveling carnivals.<\/p>\n
More laughter.<\/p>\n
\u201cI hear,\u201d he said, \u201cthe work is too hard.\u201d<\/p>\n
Future weaves with past<\/strong><\/p>\nThe future hangs over the town like the dramatic low clouds I saw getting off the bus.<\/p>\n
Butler bosses told Salvador that \u201cRepublicans\u201d will be trying to restrict H-2b work visa laws so they may work fewer months next year.<\/p>\n
The town needs the money, he says, it is already a poor and tough place.<\/p>\n
Ricardo says the town is so dangerous, he only comes home periodically and rarely goes out at night.<\/p>\n
Salvador, a positive guy in general, adds that he doesn’t go out at night but why would he, after being away all year he’s happy to be home.<\/p>\n
Yet it is worse than he says.<\/p>\n
Rodolfo later tells me returning carnies wear a “blanco,” on their backs, a target. Local crime bosses know they have dollars. When they are gone for the season, carnies pay protection money to the criminals to leave their families alone.<\/p>\n
“It is awful,” Rodolfo said. “This was a safe town when we grew up.”<\/p>\n
Behind the mask<\/strong><\/p>\nAfter a couple hours at the born-again Christian revival on Saturday night, Rodolfo walked me back to my $15-a-night Hotel Valencia. <\/p>\n
I’d been invited into homes, businesses and churches. I saw where these carnies were born, went to school and got married.<\/p>\n
I knew them by their carnivals rides up north but the reality of these people took shape walking their streets.<\/p>\n
These were profound experiences and at the door of my hotel I thanked Rodolfo with my hand over my heart. <\/p>\n
The weekend rain let up once again but left Calle Ferrer looking like an en pleine air painting, simmering in the wet night and under dim street lamps.<\/p>\n
Perhaps still overwhelmed by the revivalist fever, Rodolfo looked at me and said I should come back next year when carnies return home again.<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause people love you here.\u201d<\/p>\n
That adds another layer to things, I thought, closing the door.<\/p>\n
On Sunday, looking out the window as bus rolled out of Tlapacyan, I wondered what I just saw.<\/p>\n
I never met Apolinar, who recently was elected mayor. I never saw the violence. A weekend isn’t long enough. <\/p>\n
All that came to me were impressions, of a Mesoamerican people living between worlds. More urgent for them is feeding their families and safety. <\/p>\n
I thought of American traveling carnivals so dependent on these tough men, who come back to the states year after year with the knowledge of how to safely set up a Giant Wheel or a rollercoaster and seemingly in a snap.<\/p>\n
Tough men, I’d say, but having seen their hometown I’ll forever think of them as if dancing on a high loose pole with a whistle and a tiny carnival drum.<\/p>\n
Maybe because it was the superstitious week leading up to Mexico’s Day of the Dead. Maybe the undeniable power of Rodolfo’s revival got to me too.<\/p>\n
I wondered, will these men eat the witch or will the witch eat them.<\/p>\n
Then I relaxed and watched the surf as the bus hobbled along the bumpy coastal road of Costa Esmeralda, because there are no witches, only traveling carnivals.<\/p>\n
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This is the tenth month of my year in traveling carnivals and the end of the traditional carnival season. I’ve hitchhiked more than 12,000 miles and worked in traveling carnivals in California, New Jersey, New York, Chicago, Alaska, Minnesota, Oklahoma and Texas. I’ve written about carny life from Alaska to Mesoamerica. I’m writing from Veracruz and may make one more carnival before writing a book on this remarkable year.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Salvador Garcia Alvarez and his brother Rodolfo, right, are surprised to see me in Tlapacoyan, Veracruz, Mexico, the center of Mexican migration to U.S. carnivals. Rodolfo at the end makes reference to me quitting and them missing me working on the swing ride called the Lolly. \u201cThe witch grabs me, she takes me to her […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-862","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4qqmC-dU","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/eyeslikecarnivals.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/862","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/eyeslikecarnivals.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/eyeslikecarnivals.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eyeslikecarnivals.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eyeslikecarnivals.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=862"}],"version-history":[{"count":9,"href":"https:\/\/eyeslikecarnivals.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/862\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1354,"href":"https:\/\/eyeslikecarnivals.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/862\/revisions\/1354"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/eyeslikecarnivals.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=862"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eyeslikecarnivals.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=862"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eyeslikecarnivals.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=862"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}